Brr.

Posted on: February 12, 2010 at 6:59 pm. 1 comment

I know that I haven’t actually added anything like I’ve been planning on doing, but I’ve been working on completely re-doing my other site, Quotetastic. It’s taking a LONG time, because it involves re-adding over 4000 quotes to wordpress :| It’s going to take awhile, and I don’t even know if it will work how I want it to. But I’m going to try, and try and try every chance I get
Things have been somewhat improving in my own personal life. David and I are *trying* to work things out, without being a couple, just seeing how it goes and what not. We hang out if we get the chance now, but there’s no *pressure* for him to hang out with me, so he doesn’t need as much space.. or something :S I really don’t know, all I do know is that whatever happens, I’m not getting back with him until there is some kind of.. really good method of making it up to me how much it hurt for him to tell me he was sick of me.

Brandon (David’s best friend) is being weird lately. Back in March, while I was still dating David.. he liked me. He told me, things got messed up because I liked him before I met David, etc. He’s acting a lot now like he did when he liked me, and I really hope he doesn’t. In all honesty, Brandon and I would make… a perfect couple. We get along SO great, can basically read each other’s mind, and we can talk about EVERYTHING. We’ve just always had really bad timing, but thankfully I DON’TTT feel anything for him, but if he did, it would just be the weirdness all over again. It’s kind of the same with Jeff, and earlier Brandon was asking me if I liked Jeff because we’ve gotten rather close lately. It’s like buddy, I JUST got out of a yearlong relationship that’s basically not even over.. no, I’m not going to be liking someone else. It’s all so.. weird :/ I learned my lesson on why you don’t like your ex’s best friends tho, trust me.

In drama that isn’t really mine, the people at my school are honestly so fcking immature. At the end of last year, my best friends now boyfriend Andrew started to change. She didn’t talk to him at the time, but stuff happened in his life and he got depressed. He changed his style, found himself and slowly started talking to Taylor (my best friend). They started to hang out more in the summer, and he started to hang out with my group of friends more, and by the end of the summer he was just as close as we all were. To the preps of the school though, he changed A LOT. And they felt that it was all because of Taylor, and that she was ruining his life. When they started dating at the end of summer, she got hated on, stared at, and people sent multiple honesty box messages on facebook (real mature, eh?) about how we, the “emo sketchbags” were runing his life, because he went from the top of the school to “the scum of the school”. All of the people who were supposedly his friends (although they never really were good friends.. they told him they were sick of hearing about his problems, and treated him like crap all through highschool) were constantly bashing him, and my group of friends since he became a part of it. My friend ignored all of the comments and bashing her, hoping they would just grow the eff up and get over it.

In December his parents made him switch schools, and NONE of them made any attempts to talk to him. For the last three months, they left it alone and didn’t do anything. RANDOMLY, yesterday he got a facebook message from a girl at my school (who has never had a full conversation with Taylor), saying that Taylor was ruining his life, he was ruining his morals, and that she felt sorry for his parents. She bashed Taylor, saying she was gross, ugly and fcked up, when she has never had a full conversation with her. So today, Taylor went up to her in the hall and asked if she could talk to her, and she just said “No, I don’t walk to talk.” Taylor started to talk anyways, and when she asked her why she said shit about her, she just said “I’m sorry, you can walk away now.” She literally would not say anything, and she CLEARLY wasn’t sorry. When Taylor pointed that out, she just said that she really wasn’t sorry, and Taylor could walk away. She admitted that she was wrong, then said walk away. So we did, and by the time we got to class there was a comment to andrew on facebook, saying the exact same stuff. She could say it over facebook, but not to her face?

Honestly, the preps at my school are SO immature, it’s getting unbearable. Taylor has done shit all to them, yet they hate her for who she’s dating. She tried to ignore it, and they just brought it all back up. It’s pathetic, annoying and they are honestly going no where in life. They get drunk EVERY weekend, bash anyone they feel like, sleep with anyone and just overall act like they own the fcking school. It’s so annoying, because I thought those cliches were only on TV. :/

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This is killing me.

Posted on: February 10, 2010 at 8:12 pm. 3 comments

I’m trying so hard. Trying to make it not effect me this much, trying to make it work, trying to figure out if it will work, and if it’s even worth trying. I love you, and I just wish you loved me enough to try back.

Falling a thousand feet per second
You still take me by surprise
I just know we can’t be over
I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence takes a lot to realize
It is worse to finish then to start all over and never let it lye
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won’t fall even if you said I was wrong

I’m not perfect but I keep trying
‘Cause that’s what I said I would do from the start
I am not alive if I’m lonely
So please don’t leave
Was it something I said or was it just my, just myself
Just myself
I’m not perfect but I keep trying

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Staring at the mess I made

Posted on: February 9, 2010 at 5:19 pm. 2 comments

Today was an interesting day. My phone got stolen, and then I was held hostage by the thief. My friend Brandon stole my phone today when I was out for lunch at subway ’cause I wouldn’t buy him a cookie.. then he called my friend, who i was with, asked to talk to me to say he had my phone. I was just like lol you tool, clearly I know that. So I got it back as soon as I got back to school from lunch, and then he called me back into the classroom him and his friends we’re sitting in, and as soon as I got in the door they slowly closed it and then some random girl was being the guard so that I wasn’t allowed out.

So I just basically chilled with them for the rest of lunch, ’cause my friends all disappeared after that. It was kinda weird just because they’re all David’s close friends (we actually met because of Brandon) and I felt like it would be some kind of interrogation… it wasn’t though was stuck with them all. Brandon and Jeff are my close friends though, and I’ve been really good friends with Brandon since before me and David were dating. We’re hohohookers.. LOL, don’t ask I’m Bob and he’s Resty.

Today for photography, I took in my mom’s old school film camera. I haven’t used a camera with actual film in so long, but it’ll be cool ’cause I’ll get to develop it myself in the dark room at school. I was sitting in the library with Jeff today trying to figure it out, but the stupid manual was all in french so we had to look it up on google :p Luckily we found the .pfd file of the english version, which makes me thankful for newer technology.

Speaking of newer technology, I finally got the new Facebook layout today. Idk why people are complaining SO MUCH about it. I mean, it’s really different and since I hate change, I don’t like it for that aspect.. but it does look better. It’s just kinda hard to get used to because the home and profile buttons are on the opposite side of the page, so I always click the wrong link out of habit, and it just takes me to my friend requests that I let sit there. Whenever someone sees my facebook requests, they always say “Holy crap, you have so many requests. AND TWO FRIEND REQUESTS, ANSWER THEM!” it’s like lol, no.. i’ll leave them thanks. I don’t want to join any of the applications, nor do I really want those people on my facebook.. so I just leave them there, and that way they can’t re-request so I don’t have to deal with it later.

Well, I should probably go and finish my english project now. It was supposed to be due today, but the teacher had an appointment so she changed it to tomorrow, so thankfully I had an extra day. I just have to put everything together for a visual component, and then i’m doneee!

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I did something I shouldn't have done.

Posted on: February 7, 2010 at 10:45 pm. 4 comments

But that’s another tale for another time.

Something I did however that I should do more of, was get an affiliate I’ve known Vicky for almost as long as I’ve been making websites probably, or just about. I haven’t really talked to her much at all in the last one or two years tho, so it was nice to see her comment the other day.

I still didn’t get around to updating the site, but when I was working this weekend, I was either working on my english project, or arguing with David. We ended up hanging out last night and tonight, which IDK how good of an idea it was, because whenever we break up (we’ve broken up a few times before…), we never seem to act much like ex’s should. But it was nice to just get to see him again, and just hang out.

Dear John was a good movie. Although, it would have been a lot better if I hadn’t read the book. There are some MAJOR changes from the book to the movie, although I wont say what they are for those who want to see the movie. It also annoyed me that there were people who were gasping during the movie at parts that were shocking.. IN THE BOOK. All I could do was say “stfu, and read the damn book.” I get the the trailer made it seem like a good movie, but it’s not like they had the full in-depth that the book gives it, so you don’t see as much detail about them. I liked the book better, but the movie would have been awesome if I hadn’t read the book. I think a lot of the people who saw the movie and now want to read the book are now going to be shocked if they do read it, because of all the changes. But whatever, I’m not going to give anything else away about the movie

Here’s a random quote that I like at the moment:
& that’s when i knew I’d said something ugly, something final; words I couldn’t take back regardless of how much I wanted too: there was no white out for this.

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