Never Gonna Be Alone
Posted on: March 31, 2010 at 3:53 pm. 6 comments
I’m really tired. As usual :( I should really go to bed earlier at night. I was actually going to last night, but then I decided to quickly move some stuff around on my computer to free up some space on the main hard drive. I thought it wouldn’t be a big deal.. turns out, there was over 5GB of music in the folder, all on my iTunes. And since iTunes doesn’t like it when you move music, I had to go through all of them, find the ones that were moved, and replace the file location. I only did some of them last night, and then finished doing the rest this morning -_- There were probably about 100-200 songs that I had to replace the location for, maybe more. So annoying.
But speaking of music, I really love the song ‘Never Gonna Be Alone’ by Nickleback. I heard it on the radio yesterday, and it’s just such a good song 
I took it as a cute song about love, but the music video makes it seem as if it's a song about death. Maybe it really is, and I just haven't paid enough attention yet 
I still really like it though, and either way it's a cute song.
I may have found my prom dress. My sister & I went shopping after school tomorrow so I could look for one, and she needed a dress for an awards thing at her school. We ended up finding a dress that we both liked, and so she bought it and told me that if I didn’t find one I liked better, I could just wear that one. Which I don’t really mind, because a) it’s not an event at my school, so it’s not like it’s a big deal and second: It saves me money :p The dress wasn’t really that expensive, but still.. seeing as I’ll barely have any work at all anymore, any money I can save is good. I’ll have to see if I can find one I like better, although I really like the one she bought. I’ll upload a picture later.. I took one of it when I tried it on, I just haven’t uploaded the pictures from my camera yet.
I handed in my resume to a car dealership yesterday. David works there, and he said that they were hiring for the front desk, so I handed in a resume last night. I don’t particularly want to work at a front desk, but I’d only have to work Tuesday-Thursday after school until like 8:30, which would be about five hour shifts three times a week, which is SO much better than what I ever got where I currently work. I’m not sure if I’ll actually get it or not, but it’d be nice to have a new job. And I’d work with David, except he isn’t going to be working there much longer because his co-op placement for school was talking to him today about him getting a job there.
Speaking of David, we’re doing okay now. Things we’re still iffy Monday when we hung out, but I tried to just ignore what he did on the weekend because it clearly didn’t seem like a big deal to him. I told him how I felt (many times) about it, so if it happens again then I know we’ll have a problem. Hopefully we wont though, because it’s so much better when we’re just happy.
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The bitter in you.
Posted on: March 28, 2010 at 4:40 pm. 4 comments
So, my weekend hasn’t gotten any better since my rant post. I worked yesterday, and it was supposed to be busy because of the tournament, but I was at the smaller arena (there was two of three being used for the tournament) so it wasn’t busy at all.
I got $10 in tips though, because someone bought a coffee with a $20 bill, then left without their change. It was $18, and when the guy never came back for it, it became a tip split between the two of us working. We tried calling him back when he left, but then he disappeared in 0.2 seconds. We couldn’t tell who he was either, because every guy there was holding a coffee cup.. but hey, it bought me a sweater when I went shopping later.
I hung out with David yesterday after work/shopping and tried to ignore the entire thing, but then he just did more stupid things to annoy me to the point of crying in his car (for the second day in a row..) The thing that bothered me more was that he didn’t even do anything when I was crying.. he just continued to bitch at me for stupid, pointless things.
I was actually so close to walking home when we went to Tim Hortans yesterday. He just kept being a DICK, and if it wasn’t so cold out/I had my jacket, I would have walked the 20 minutes home. Stupid cold weather. I WANT WARMTH.
I worked again today, at the bigger arena, but it again wasn’t busy. It was pretty boring all day with just random times where there was a few orders, but since there were usually 4 of us on a time (3 workers + my boss), stuff got done really quickly.
When I got home, David continued to be a dick via text, leaving me bawling my eyes out on my bed. My parents weren’t home at the time and I just wanted to SCREAM and get my anger out, but then they came home. My dad came into my room to tell me something about dinner, and I guess he noticed me crying (even though I tried to stop/hide it once they came home). He then told my mom I guess, and she came into my room asking me why I was crying, if someone died, if someone upset me, if David broke up with me, if it was because of David, if it was because of them (meaning my parents), etc. I kept telling her it was nothing, but since clearly it was something, she wouldn’t go awayyy. It was just making me cry even more, and eventually she just left because I wasn’t saying anything but ‘no’, ‘go away’ or ‘nothing’. It was nice of her to ask, and see if I was okay.. but obviously I wasn’t if I was crying… and what teenage girl wants to tell their mom about the problems they have in their life?
I hate people seeing that I’m crying. This is the second time this year (and actually, probably ever in general) that I’ve actually cried in front of someone.. Ugh, and the sad thing is it’s always because of David. The first time was when we broke up and my friends kept asking me about it, and I just broke down.
I just keep listening to Lover Dearest (the song) because it’s a bitter song and I love it. So some lyrics:
I stayed for a while and waited for words, seen but not heard and struggled to try. My tongues turning black, but I’ll take you back; you’re still the best more or less, I guess.
Anyways, I’ll try to make this post at least semi not rant-ish. After reading Kaela’s blog the other day where she mentioned cracking knuckles, I’ve been trying to stop. I ALWAYS crack my knuckles, and I kinda do think it’s starting to mess up my hands. They kind of hurt NOT to crack now though, which I’m assuming is a bad thing.
Oh, and this isn’t really a positive note.. but my sister was exposed to pink eye. Which means that I could get it from her. That would suck, except for the fact that I’d get to stay off school for a few days. I had a bit of pink in my eye yesterday and my sister was freaking out that I’d get it. My eyes are kinda puffy now, but I don’t think that would be from pink eye..
I also added two new Textures, making a total of 14 in the last few days. Some of them suck hardcore, but I guess it’s better than nothing.
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Ugh.
Posted on: March 26, 2010 at 8:28 pm. 6 comments
You wanna know what I really hate? Well, I’m going to tell you anyways.
When your life seems to be going great, and you’re happy and you have everything you need and you’re just overall loving life. And you wish and hope nothing is going to change it, because it’s a good feeling to have. And then something (or, in this case.. someone) ruins it. Just takes what could have been a perfect day and stomps all over it, ruining the entire thing. Your happiness, and what seems to be your perfect life.
And if that’s not bad enough… it’s worse when the same thing (or in this case, someone) tries to fix it. Actually, they do fix it, and you think everything will be fine again. You’re happy again, and your night is going back to being perfect.
BUT THEN, they decide that they want to change their mind again. And once again, your night is ruined and you’re supposed to act like you’re perfectly fine with it, because they aren’t going to change for you. For other people, sure.. but no, not the person they claim to love.
It’s just sooo peachy when you try to improvise your night, to make everyone happy. But instead, everyone argues and eventually says “no, just have the perfect night you wanted”. Then, everyone gets mad at you, and you become the bitch because you want the perfect night you were told you were going to get. So much for keeping your word.
Fuck boys.
(That’s all the seem to be good for anyways, right?)
/Rant.
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What About Me
Posted on: March 24, 2010 at 4:09 pm. 3 comments
Wow, I’ve actually been updating the site lately. I added three six new Textures and 20 new Light Orb Icon Textures. I’ve been kind of obsessed with making textures lately. I want to make some new brushes soon, but I want to make some with a scanner. I’m trying to get my sister to let me hook up her old scanner/printer to my laptop so that I can scan brushes, but she sucks sometimes and won’t let me. She also won’t tell me when she’s coming home, which probably means that she’s at her boyfriend’s house. I was home all alone so I wanted to know, but my Dad just came home so I’m not anymore.
School sucks. Majorly. I sooo wish it was still March Break. The thing is, I do NOTHING at school all day. I have Photography, which is a SLACK class and half the time I don’t even do, then I have spare so I chill all period. Then I have English, and all this week we’re doing presentations and I did mine yesterday. I then have lunch, so I again just chill/eat. Last period I have com-tech, and right now we’re making 3D cities (well, I’m making a countryish town) and it’s kind of annoying. If one persons computer shuts down the program, everybody’s will shut down and if you haven’t saved it, you’re screwed. Sometimes it will even open as a corrput file :/ The program is kind of cool, but it’s really glitchy sometimes. I forget what it’s called.. 3D Max 2010 or something, idk.
I was just randomly reminded that I need to charge my iPod. It died on me today in English class because I can’t find my charging cord.. I’ll have to go steal my mom’s after this post. I’m supposed to watch last night’s Lost too, because I wasn’t really paying attention when it was on last night. I’m too tired to pay attention to it though, so I’ll put it on my iPod and watch it tomorrow during school
I know that the layout had some commenting issues, both with the comment box not showing up + the text not being readable when submitting a comment, but it should all be fixed & working fine now, so don’t hesitate to send a comment 
I’m not sure if I’ll get to go see Hedley or not :( Both my friends backed out of going, so I’m trying to find new people to go with. David didn’t really want to go because Stereo’s is playing too and he doesn’t like them, but Brandon loves them so I asked him and he said he’d go, and that Jeff would come too. If Baha and Jeff come, I know that David would too. I don’t get why my friends care so much about the seating, considering we’re listening to the music, not watching it. But oh well, I just hope that I’ll get to go.
Speaking of music, I’ve been obsessed with Emily Osment lately. I was watching Family Channel and one of her songs was played in between shows, and I fell in love with it. I was going to just download it, but I ended up downloading her EP ‘All The Right Wrongs’ and I loveee it <3 My favourite songs are You Are The Only One, What About Me, All The Way Up & Average Girl. I like the one other, and the last one is okay. I think she is one of my favourite Disney singers, because she doesn't sound like a Disney star. Plus, I loved her as Lily in Hannah Montana 
Anywho, if you have any suggestions for any more things for me to add to the site, just leave a comment 
I’ve been in a very graphic-designy mood lately.. is designy even a word?
EDiTT// I added a new brush pack. Click the image below to go to the brushes page.
