#50
Posted on: June 25, 2010 at 5:14 pm. 11 comments
I have to say, I never though I would make it to post #50. I mean, I hoped that I could actually stick with blogging but in the past, I never did. I’ve had countless blogs, and I don’t think any of them lasted as long as Lover Dearest has, or if it did last.. have any visitors/comments. Even though it’s only been five months since I set up this blog, I’m kinda proud of what it’s turned into… and I hope it just continues to get better, and I don’t eventually give up on it.
I haven’t been up to much the past couple days. Randomly on Monday night, my throat started hurting. Not bad at first, but then it got progressively worse, and I would randomly get headaches as well. It got better as I was hanging out with David that night, and I was fine when I woke up Tuesday morning, but it started getting worse again Tuesday night. By the time I went to bed, my ear was killing me as well as a headache and a sore throat. It felt like someone was screaming right in my ear, and it just kept ringing and ringing, and it was so painful. I took advil, but it honestly didn’t help at all. It eventually got slightly better, so I managed to fall asleep at around 1ish, even though I had to get up and write my English exam at 12. I woke up around 9:45 and I was okay, but randomly during the day I would have a sore throat/ear.. so I didn’t dare listen to my iPod in that ear.
Wednesday night, I went to the airport with Nicole to pick up Matilda. It was so good to just get to see her again, even if it was slightly awkward at first. It’s been 9 months since any of us saw her (while waitng, Nicole and I were speculating that she could have had a baby in that time and just never told us.. she didn’t though 
) so there was a lot to catch up on, but after a night of filling her in on all of the gossip with us and everyone at our school, it’s kinda like she never left now.
Yesterday, we all just kinda chilled during the day and then in the afternoon we went swimming at Taylor’s house. Matilda has an underwater camera so we took some pretty sick pictures I’ll hopefully show some, but I wont be able to until Matilda posts them, which probably wont be until she gets back to Sweden.. and I hope the time goes by slowwwwlyyy.
I *actually* worked last night. Someone needed their shift covered, so my friend took it and told me that if I could work it (meaning I had a ride there) she would give it to me, because she got scheduled two shifts and babysat earlier this week. It was only a 3hr15m shift, but it’s better than nothing. I had nothing but problems all night, because they have this somewhat new safe, and I swear it’s IMPOSSIBLE to open. I tried for a good 20 minutes, and eventually had to call Taylor to come and open it because I couldn’t do it. I tried calling my bosses, but it just so happened that NEITHER of them were working that night -_- Sooo annoying, because they didn’t pick up their WORK cell phones either, that they are given specifically for things like this. That, and we were out of soo many things. But I made $1.50 in tips so w.e.
When I woke up this morning, my sore throat was back and worse than ever -_- I had a major headache to go with it and I just felt like crap. It slowly got better as the day went on, but it was still annoying. I texted my friends saying I wasn’t going to hang out with them today because I felt like crap, so they said okay. But then when they were at school (some people still have exams), Brandon told them I was going to his house tonight and then they got all ‘WTF.’ I didn’t actually know I was supposed to be going to his house, because I had told David a few nights ago I would go to some tractor pull with him tonight, but he apparently changed those plans and said we’d go to Brandon’s instead.. without letting me know? Whatever, I don’t mind either way because I wont be going at all if my throat/head gets worse again, but my friends (well, one in particular) got annoying, saying that Brandon was more important to me, blah blah blah.. just because I was going to hang out with him and other people.
Whatever though, I still don’t know what’s happening for tonight.
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Skin Parasite Breakthrough
Posted on: June 22, 2010 at 2:04 pm. 10 comments
Friday night, I did get to see Toy Story 3. I’m not going to give anything major away for the multiple people who I know also want to see it, but.. IT. WAS. SO. AMAZING. My favourite of the three movies, even if it was rather sad. I wouldn’t recommend you go see this movie with young children though, because as the movie site warns.. there are some scary scenes. To me, it seemed like over half the movie wasn’t really child friendly, but I’m not a child so to me, it was amazing (though still a little scary). Go see it. Right now.
On the weekend, I basically did nothing. Worked on my photography summative that I handed in yesterday, did some late english projects.. and that’s about it. Oh, and I went to the mall to get prom make up and jewelery. Isn’t that exciting? I got two necklaces, though when I got home and put the one on.. it broke :( Luckily I fixed it though, by breaking another one of my older necklaces that I never wear.
Yesterday was the last day of school. I only have one exam on Wednesday, and after that I’m done. Which means, I am now TECHNICALLY a graduate, even if a) we don’t have our graduation ceremony until October (for those in the class who have failed a class, and are going back so they can still graduate) and 2: I’m going back for another semester next year. Not because I failed any of my classes, but so I can do co-op and get some experience, and have half a year to work and save up money to go to college. That is, if I can even find a job because even though I went looking AGAIN last week, I still haven’t got any calls about any jobs.
I hate my cat sometimes. She has fleas, and we can’t get her even close to a bath tub to use the flea removal stuff my sister bought. So, because of all her fleas.. whenever she comes and lays on my bed, she leaves fleas. Who in turn stay longer than she does, and get all over me and my stuff, and then I feel them crawling on me. It’s the same with ants, which we always seem to get in the summer :/ Seriously, there’s hundreds of them. And I always feel them crawling on me, even when they aren’t actually there. It’s creepy.
While googling some stuff (and trying to see if it was normal to have those feelings when there aren’t actually bugs on you), I cam across skin parasite treatment. They have a bunch of products that help kill skin parasites, which in turn would just make your life so much easier. The skin parasites are found mostly at night (when I’ve just gotten comfortable in my bed, and then have to twitch and flick an imaginary bug away), so it can help any sleeping problems related to feeling the parasites, because you’ll no longer have them. It’s a pretty cool product, and I would totally get it if it was affecting my life HORRIBLY. I’ll just have to live with it though, until we can get my cat into a flea bath.
This was a lame blog post, I know. I had more to blog about, but now I forget. Oh, but I might not be blogging that much in the next week or so. One of my best friends, Matilda, moved to Sweden almost a year ago. She came back to visit for Halloween, and tomorrow she is coming at 4:30 for a week, so that she can come to our prom. I’m so excited to see her again, so we’ll most likely be hanging out a lot so I wont be online to post much.
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Free Concert
Posted on: June 18, 2010 at 3:57 pm. 8 comments
I know that I still have a few comments to return, and I generally like to do that before I post another blog but I have so much to blog about that I’m going to do it now and then return the comments right after I finish. I was going to blog last night when I got home from the concert, but I was way too tired so I just returned a few comments and what not, and then went to bed around 1am.
So.. I’ll start with Monday night. Shortly after I blogged, he did text me but said that we couldn’t hang out. I was a little annoyed at first, because he had bugged me the night before saying he wanted to hang out because I had family stuff the next day so we wouldn’t be able to. But then he said it was for a funeral visitation and that’s a valid reason to not hang out, and he said that we could hang out after. He was going at 7, and I figured by the time he was done, it would be after 8 and I would have already started watching The Secret Life, and it would lead to the same problem as last week. He texted me at like ten to eight and said he was done, and I said okay.. so are we gonna hang out? Because I’ll miss the secret life if we are. Then he got all weird, saying I shouldn’t have to sacrifice my show for him and that he’s giving me my space.
Okay, I appreciate that.. but I’m telling you that I WILL miss my show to see you. He used to always try to get me to miss Grey’s Anatomy (which I love WAY more than the secret life) and it was alright then, but apparently I shouldn’t have to sacrifice it for him now. So I kinda just got the idea that HE didn’t want to hang out but he didn’t want me to get mad about that (which, I was a little just because he had bugged me Sunday saying I should miss my show for him) and so I texted him saying it’s okay if he doesn’t want to hang out, he can just tell me but I am willing to miss the secret life. He just never replied to my text, and then at around 10 when he texted me goodnight, he said he regretted not seeing me tonight. Really? I told you like three times that I didn’t mind missing the show to see you, and you told me I should sacrifice it for you. I clearly didn’t mind doing so, but you thought I shouldn’t. But whatever, he’s really weird sometimes.
Tuesday night, right after I got home from school we went to the trailer for dinner. I just sat outside for about an hour there, because I was trying to even out my tan lines from my last sunburn a few weeks ago. Since my prom dress is strapless, I figured I should fix them a little so they don’t look hideous. I fixed them a bit, and they aren’t AS noticeable, but you can still see them a bit.. as well as on my back. Oh well, it’s supposed to be warm this weekend so maybe I can fix them better.
Then we went to my grandma’s house for my two cousin’s birthdays, Paige who turned 10 yesterday, Owen who turns 6 on the 30th, and my Grandma who turned 69 on the 16th. It was a ‘hillbilly party’ as they called it, and we basically just spent the night going through the forest behind my Grandparent’s house on 4 wheelers, 3 wheelers, and a golf cart-ish thing. I only went on that, and the first time (when my mom was driving it), we got stuck in the mud. It was amusing, becuase as she was trying to pull it out all my younger cousins were screaming for help so my aunt could come and pull us out with the rope attatched to the 4 wheeler, but when she came looking for us, we had went off the path so she couldn’t find us. My mom did eventually get us out of the mud though. After that, my 10 year old cousin was driving it. That was.. scary, to say the least. I was in the front, so I took a video of the entire ride (it was about 8 minutes) and there’s lots of screaming in the video.. and us telling Paige that she’s running into trees, because she didn’t notice…haha. It was a fun night though, even though one of the trees practically broke off of my back because my cousin ran into it and it flung back at me. I don’t have any scrapes, but my back still hurts from it.
Wednesday night, I hung out with David.. We didn’t really do much, just drove around and what not.. I wanted to be home early so that I could shower and sleep, because I’d been lacking in sleep (still am, but you know).
Thursday.. ahh! David and I went to the free concert (that I mentioned in a previous post) and it. was. amazing. I got to see We are Bravest (you probably don’t know them, they’re a local band that’s slowly getting more famous), Faber Drive & Marianas Trench.. ALL FOR FREE (well, I had to pay $10 for parking but w.e). Faber Drive was amazing, and I got a few good pictures (but because I’m so short and we weren’t RIGHT at the front, peoples heads and arms got in the way quite a bit). They did an amazing remix of a bunch of pop songs, like Break Your Heart, In My Head and some other ones. I took a video of it, so hopefully I’ll upload that at some point. As well as the pictures. I still need to put them on my computer, because my camera is still acting up with that 
Marianas Trench was.. amazing. Everyone was pushing and what not, and it was SO squished but SO worth it. They sadly didn't play Lover Dearest, but they did play Shake Tramp. I hadn't heard that song in so long 
They are amazing live, even though David apparently heard that they sucked live. I loved them though, and the whole concert. I have some videos and pictures of them too, but my camera died like RIGHT at the end. I want to set up a gallery with the best pictures, so once I upload them and get all of it figured out, I'll be sure to post some pics 
Tonight, I'm hopefully going to see Toy Story 3 Even though I barely have any money thanks to my lack of work, I still wanna see it. But it starts at 6:55, and David won't even get to my house until like 6:45, plus tickets may be sold out by then. It plays again at 9:45, but he says he doesn't want to see it late. I'll seriously be so sad if I don't get to see it, because I've waited 11 freaking years for this to come out.. literally. So if he doesn't want to see it, I'll seriously be tempted to just go and watch it by myself, as long as my parents will be home to pick me up after.
As for my new job.. the guy is being rather annoying. I sent him the first draft of what I made Saturday Night, and he didn't reply again until Monday (the shop is open ALL weekend though), and when he did reply, he was really vague and so I had to ask him questions, but he didn't reply until Thursday after school. So I made some changes and resent it to him yesterday, but I haven't got a reply from him yet. If all of the things are like this, it'll probably be really annoying Oh well, it will at least get me SOME money.
Anywho.. I should probably wrap up this blog post. It’s already over 1100 words.. oops
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My Hohohooker – The Bob & Resty Story
Posted on: June 15, 2010 at 4:25 am. 0 comments
I’m not really sure why I’m writing this. I guess for some clarity for those who think I would be better off with Brandon rather than David. Maybe I would be, but because of this story.. that’s not the way it is. And I’m not trying to say I WANT to be with Brandon, or wish things had turned out differently for us. I love David, and I’m happy with him (at least when he’s not being stupid) and I don’t regret/resent that I’m with him instead of Brandon.
I have a hohohooker & his name is Resty. I loe him (yes, I put loe on purpose) and he’s there for me through every thing, and I try to do the same for him. I’m the first one he texts at 5am when he’s freaking out about his girlfriend & he’s the first one I IM when I’m on MSN and am in need of some cheering up. He writes me stories about the two of us as helicopters or eggs and we play endless games of checkers where he kicks my ass, and then I kick his at hexic. We make wishes on 11:11 together, and once even wished for the same thing, on the same night. Essentially, he’s my best guy friend, David’s best friend & someone I happen to share a long history with.
Basically, this story starts in grade nine. Orientation, I sat at a table with him and a mutual friend compared our schedules, but I didn’t say a word to him. He was incredibly tiny, and looked like he was the little brother of someone there. Later that night, he asked that same mutual friend for my MSN so he could talk to me, and we talked a bit. But it wasn’t until Grade 10 where I had him in 3 out of 4 classes + lunch everyday that I started to talk to him more, and eventually fall madly in like with him. He knew it, too. And I thought he liked me too, but he would never admit it. He’d ask me for chocolate every time I had some, we’d have eye sex from across the classrooms during presentations & I once got raging mad at him for a haircut that he had, and wouldn’t talk to him for days.
Cut to grade 11, where he is in none of my classes yet we grew even closer & he grew even taller. We talked on MSN from the minute we got home from school until we went to bed, later in the year even with webcam sessions for those hours. It wasn’t until he introduced me to David that things started to change. Every one thought David & I liked each other, though truthfully at the time I didn’t as I still liked Brandon (who wasn’t Resty at the time). Brandon would ask me daily who I liked, if it was him, David.. or Brandon’s brother, Jordan (wtf, I know. His brother is a weirdo) but I would say no one. A month or so later, David and I started dating quite out of the blue. After talking to my friend Gwen, he asked me out over a ‘surprise’ facebook relationship request (but I knew before because of Gwen). While in a massive group conversation with a bunch of their friends, they asked why we (David & I) were so quiet, and David said because we started going out (or something). Brandon FREAKED out. Not in an angry way, but in a OMGWTFWHENDIDTHISHAPPENINEEDTOTYPEINALLCAPS kinda way. I always suspected he still liked me at the time, but I didn’t really care because I had David.
I don’t think my feelings for Brandon ever really left at that time though. In early March (March 10th to be exact), Brandon confessed his feelings for me. He started with the statement “I’m an idiot”, and then after MUCH hassle, I got it out of him why. He said he had feelings for me, and had since long before I started dating David. But David was his best friend, so he couldn’t say anything.. even though he liked me first, for longer, and we got along much better & had more in common. I wasn’t shocked when he told me this (only that he actually confessed), but it did shake up my head a little. I got so confused after, wondering if he was the guy I should be with. I had only been dating David for a few months at this point (and we had already broken up once two months before this) and didn’t know what/who I want. So I shut myself off from David for awhile, and that led to a short break up right before I left for Florida with Gwen for March Break ’09.
I didn’t talk to Brandon at all in the short time (4-5 days) that David and I broke up, and I felt like he was avoiding me. Once we did get back together though, Brandon messaged me soon after and said he was scared because he thought I broke up with David because of what he told me. Truthfully, it wasn’t fully that (we were arguing over something) but I did know I had feelings for him. While I was in Florida, I ended up staying up until the wee hours of the morning talking to Brandon on video chats, and having what were called “Baha Gay Sessions” (Baha is his nickname) and “Meredith After Hours”. Meredith After Hours started innocently, as I was just supposed to show him the palm trees outside, which I couldn’t do until after David went to bed because I was already in a video chat with him. Baha Gay Session however, was where we’d talk about a vast number of topics regarding love, relationships, etc. When David found out about these, he wasn’t happy. So we stopped, and felt like we were having an affair. Except, when the husband left home, the mistress came over to clean the house (that’s the analogy we came up with at least).
Shortly after I got back from Florida (maybe the day that I did, I’m not sure) hohohookers were created. I still look back on the MSN chat history of it, and I love the coitnversation. I can’t remember entirely how it started, but it basically streamed from me being his hooker, to us being partner hookers, which lead to the name hohohookers, at which time we stated it shouldn’t be named because everything that gets named (baha gay session, meredith after hours) gets ended by David. But we named it anyways. The nicknames Bob & Resty came shortly after that. I’m Bob, because when he asked for my middle name, that’s what I told him it was (I don’t like my actual middle name). Resty is a shortened form of his middle name which I asked him, though I’m pretty sure he doesn’t tell many people about his middle name. Somehow, hohohookers didn’t get stopped by David.. but I don’t think he was too happy about it.
Cut to April. David and I had broke up again, for some random reason (I don’t remember anymore, there were too many break ups). Resty again thought it was because of him, and it was shortly after that where I confessed that I did have feelings for him. He was confused, and bitter.. and it was just not a good time for Resty & I. After about a week of David and I being broken up, (this was April 14th, to be exact) Resty and I spent an entire night on web cam (literally, from when we got home from school to close to midnight), writing facebook notes with each other (that I still love looking back on) and clearly showing our feelings for eachother in those notes. We had planned to go to the movies on the weekend, with my best friend & his friend who had just started dating that day. And it was being called a date, I believe.
At around 10:30 that night, we started talking about us being a couple. And how it wouldn’t work, and how we’d have to hide it from David, and how neither of us wanted to hurt him (even though he said as long as we were happy he didn’t care what we did). It eventually led to him saying, we should either just secretly date now, or wait until David was over me a bit and start dating openly then. He gave me until 11:11 to make the decision, and for some reason.. I picked the secretly dating. I had always wanted a secret relationship.. for some stupid reason. So we tried.
And for the day that it lasted, it was alright. I loved the goodnight we said that night, and I reaaally liked him (probably more than I had liked David up at this point). But the next day, it was awkward. As hell. Especially when I was standing in between him and David. We hugged once during the day, and it was when only one other person was there. At some point in the day, my good friend Alex told me that he was sad David & I broke up, and that if I ever started dating Resty he’d kill me, because he didn’t like him (I believe his reasoning was stupid, like that he was short or something). Later that day though, he wouldn’t have to worry about that.
When I got home, I was talking to Resty on msn and we he decided that it would be best if we just called it off, and maybe waiting until David moved on. It was too soon, didn’t want to hurt him, it was awkard.. etc. I mean, I kind of agreed.. but at the same time, I came closer to crying over that break up than I had for any other one me and David had up to this point (which was 3 I believe).
A few weeks later (or maybe just one week), Resty and I didn’t talk as much. We still did, but it was weird and idk.. different. I missed the friendship that we had, so much. He said he was over me, so I pretended to be over him too.. and shortly after, I started dating David again. (Note: I realize how.. slutty/bitchy this makes me sound. I mean, I dated one best friend.. dumped him, started seeing the other one behind his back, that ended.. and I went back to the other. I know it’s not a smart situation to get into, and I don’t suggest any one do such a thing.. but I was stupid, and naive.)
I think that time only lasted a few days, and then we broke up over a lie that he told me & got back together once again the next week. But this story isn’t about me and David.. Resty and I still didn’t talk as much other than random times, and I hated it. It wasn’t until the summer that we started to talk a bit more, but it still wasn’t back to how it used to be. Until David and I broke up again, and Resty once again went back to acting like he had feelings for me. He never admitted it this time, but he acted the same way as when he did. While I wished he would tell me if he did or not, I was still just happy at the fact that I had my hohohooker back, and we could make lists of places to have sex in our houses and talk about how if I ever need a place to stay, I can borrow his bed (but he’ll be in it, and he might wrap his legs around me because that’s what he does in his sleep. And I might hug him because that’s what I do in my sleep). Somewhere near the end of the summer though, David and I started our friends with benefits that eventually led to us getting back together once again (for a much longer time period).
Since all of that, there are more days than not that I feel like he has feelings for me. He has a girlfriend now, but every day during lunch at school, one of our friends would bring up how they think we like eachother. We started having weekly subway “dates” on free cookie day and have got to a point where I think we’re closer than ever. Truthfully, I don’t have feelings for him anymore. I love/loe him as a friend, and a hohohooker (and if neither of us are married by 35, we’ll marry each other) but at the moment, that’s enough. I don’t know if anything would happen in the future if we were both single at the same time but for now, I don’t really care either. I don’t want to mess up the friendship because it’s great, and I wouldn’t trade it for the world. There are times when he acts like more of a boyfriend than David does, and days where he even points that out to me. At prom, there are more pictures of me and Resty together than there are of me and David, and people thought we were a couple. Even David makes comments about Brandon every now and then, how he thinks if we break up I’ll end up with him.. but I’m not sure of that. I’m just sure that he’s my best guy friend.
(Oh, and I did tell David about the short dating of Brandon & I at some point during the summer. It took me awhile, and he surprisingly wasn’t mad.. just said something about it being hypocritical because I got upset with him text flirting with a girl while we were broken up.)
