Lookin’ for a good time
Posted on: December 19, 2011 at 11:24 pm. 6 comments
New layout! I love the colours on this one, and I wanted to try something a tiny bit different than what I had before.. but this is all I came up with. Work ended up only giving me 2 shifts this week (one on a day that I asked for off since I have family Christmas things) so I have A LOT of free time which I don’t mind at all, haha. Except for the lack of money. But I also got sick the other day, so I’d rather not be working…
With my new found free time, I’m trying to get into a somewhat regular blogging schedule because I hate that I fall behind. Though since I also have so much free time, I don’t really do much other than watch movies and TV shows. I did go for a nice coffee date with a friend tonight, who I hadn’t seen in quite some time. Too much drama is going on with my friends in regards to people not texting/hanging out enough, and it’s all ridiculously stupid and I’m trying to fix it, but everyone just seems to keep getting angrier for no reason. And now people get mad at me for actually talking to her, and just a bunch of stupid stuff is going on. It’s annoying, but hopefully tomorrow it’s going to be all fixed because a few of us are hanging out to talk about it all 
I don’t have much else to say, but I will leave you with a picture of me after I curled my hair on saturday. I NEVER do anything with my hair, and I just really love this picture of myself so I want to share it, haha:
6 comments Tags: Curls, Drama, Friends, Hair, Me, New Layout, Pictures, Site.
Come on home, boy.
Posted on: December 17, 2011 at 11:54 am. 3 comments
I am finally finished my first semester of college. At the beginning, I loved it. I was glad to be doing something other than working because the drama there had gotten so bad, there was a cute boy I was semi-obsessed with in all of my classes and I was just excited to learn. By the end, work drama stopped, I realized that I was barely learning anything because I already knew it all (I learned some different ways to do things, and how to open windows in slow motion on a mac. That’s about it), the cute boy I was semi-obsessed with became obsessed with me in an annoying way that made me dread seeing/talking to him, and my one teacher was a complete douche.
But that is finally over, and next semester I have switched from Creative to Digital so I won’t have the douche teacher, nor any drawing classes which SERIOUSLY brought me down this semester. I also got an elective class of Spanish, which I’ve ALWAYS wanted to learn so I’m excited, and creepy annoying guy is still in creative so he will be in zero of my classes. So I can hopefully meet some new friends, find a hot boy and marry him. LOL, not entirely.. but you know. AND, I only have a three day week next semester- plus a four day weekend. I only went 3 days this semester as well, but I had Wed/Thurs off, so it was like another weekend in the middle- now I have Mon/Fri off, so it’s like a long weekend every week. Score. Even though I’ll probably end up working, except they have enough people now so I’m not sure if they’ll need me during the week. But it’d be nice to have some time off, which I’m looking forward to over the next three weeks before I go back to school.
In that time, I’m hopefully going to get a new layout up! I have one that it’s the process of being coded, I just need to get it looking exactly how I want it. It’s been forever since I’ve been coding wordpress layouts, so everything looked fine until I brought it in to preview it. I’ve been working on it though, and hopefully it will be up soon! For now though, I need to go dry and curl my hair because I’m going out to the bar tonight to celebrate my sister’s friend’s birthday
3 comments Tags: Bar, Birthday, College, Friends, Life.
Tomorrow
Posted on: October 16, 2011 at 11:55 pm. 2 comments
I know I’ve been M.I.A for awhile. With school, work, friends, birthdays, super nice October weather, 2 (and a half) visits to N, going to the CMT Hit List Tour (with David), getting asked out by a guy in my class, and many other things.. it’s hard to find time to blog.
There’s a lot I could say. To start, N and I are just going to be friends. His decision, and I understand. David and I, currently just friends. David’s ex and I… not really friends anymore, I don’t think. Because he told her that he wants us to get back together (which is something I figured he would never tell her) and now she basically hates me and went a little bit psycho. But I was starting to get the psycho vibe from her before any of that happened (and just a little side note: nothing has happened with David and I).
And even just now, I got sidetracked from this blog. And I have to be up in 7 hours for school, so I’m going to sleep now. But I promise to try and update you all on my life soon, and hopefully get a new layout soon too! I am learning more about graphic (and a little web) design, so I might as well put it to use!
2 comments Tags: Boys, College, David, Friends, Life, N, Relationships, School, Work.
Doin’ My Thing
Posted on: September 22, 2011 at 9:06 am. 2 comments
A lot has happened since I last posted. The only days I get off now are saturday’s, and I would have posted last Saturday but I was too busy showing up (unannounced) at David’s work with his ex girlfriend (who I met for the first time that day) to confront him on why he was telling both of us that he wanted to get back together with us, wasn’t trying with the other, etc, etc.
I know. Okay so, I had no intentions of getting back together with him- at all. I knew that even if I started to want it, I could NEVER bring myself to actually do it. Not only because of N, but also because I can’t do that to myself again. I have become a different person, and to go back to him would be taking seventeen steps backwards. So, I told him we could be friends and that’s it (actually, my plan was more to tease him and lead him on until I can manage to go visit N at school, then date him and say eff you David. hahaha, like he did to me 
) but he kept trying anyways. Nothing happened really, he kissed me randomly once but I yelled at him for it and he said he regretting it. He kept saying that he didn’t want to do anything that would make me leave, he just wanted me in his life, etc, etc. And I always got the feeling he was saying the same things to his ex, and I knew that things had still happened with them after they broke up.
So, I added her on facebook. It was honestly just to get to know her at first, because he kept saying he would set up a meeting for the three of us (her and I both wanted it) but would just tell me ‘she would probably have hard feelings for me’, and didn’t want me to tell her certain things that we did, etc, because he didn’t want to hurt her. Which I totally understood, because if it was me and we had just broke up and he was running back to an ex (even just to be friends), I’d be upset too. So I added her (and didn’t tell him) just to let her know that I have no hard feelings for her or anything and what not. She told him I added her, and he FLIPPED out at me, saying that ‘we can’t be friends if I’m going to go behind his back like that’ and what not, and after I explained why I did it he apologized. And I said ‘you have no reason to get worried. Unless you’re saying the exact same stuff to both of us and don’t want us to figure it out’. His reply? ‘Why would I do that? You’re the only one I want to get back together with’.
So she sent me a message asking why I was adding her, and I explained. She added me, and we just started casually talking about him mostly, and their relationship, and mine with him, and what she thought about me and our situation when they first started dating. What we slowly figured out (though within one night) was that before they were dating (they were together, but not OFFICIALLY for quite a while apparently, which was the same time he was trying to get in my pants before) and then again now, he was essentially playing us both. Telling both of us that he JUST wanted to be friends with the other, and telling us that he wanted us to get back together, trying to get us to sleep with him, etc. Now, when I found this out. I didn’t really care. My initial thought was ‘cool, peace out motha effer’. But he still owed me money for the CCMA tickets (which I have now), so I sent him a text asking when I could get that and then my plan was to just be done with him after that. Not a word to him about why, just leave and not cause any big thing.
She wanted to show up at his work and confront him on his lunch. Now, while not my initial idea.. of course I’m down for that. So down. So we did. We met the next day, talked a bit, and then showed up at his work when he was on lunch. The look on his face…priceless. He didn’t even know we were talking. His first word was just ‘What?’ like.. really? You don’t have any idea what this is about? So after she listed off a bunch of his flaws (greatest moment) and then we asked why he was trying to play us both, his reply? “I was just trying to figure out what I wanted. So give me some time to do that, and we can go from there”. LOLOLOLOLOL. I immediatly said “No. There is no going from there. I want my money from the CCMA tickets, and then I don’t ever want you to talk to me again”. And she said that she felt the same. And we had more questions, as to why he did it, what he thought it would accomplish, etc, etc, and he had no answer for any of them.
We eventually just left, and her and I were still hanging out. He started texting her, saying that I was lying, I was pushing for us to get back together and he didn’t want to, she can’t believe anything I say, etc. Yet I was right there with her, showing her the text messages he had sent me. If you ask him though, ‘it was all talk and he never would have actually done anything with me’. He did a lot of shitty things, like sleeping with her and then coming to hang out with me RIGHT AFTER he left her house, and things like that.
Monday night, I got my money and the three of us went out for dinner. He ‘explained his side’ to both of us at the same time, and said that ‘He wanted to see about getting back together with me, but doesn’t have the kind of willpower I do’ aka, he couldn’t NOT be having sex and since I refused to do it with him, he went to her. And kept telling her that he could see them getting together in the future. Just, playing us both essentially. So when I left, I told her that I’d talk to her later (we text all the time, and we’re planning on going to the movies next week) and that he could have a shit life for all I care, because I don’t give a fuck.
I did text him after, saying that I appreciated that he could tell us both his side so we were both hearing the same thing, but that I couldn’t do it again. He just texted me this morning saying ‘have a great day’, but I’m not replying. He’s still trying to play her, and I try so hard to get her to not fall for it because I hate that it will turn into exactly what happened with me and him. I don’t even care anymore, N is just awesome and I want to go and see him at some point soon. He kept tempting me to go last Saturday after everything happened, and he was just being super cute and awesome and ugh. He’s awesome.
Now that I’ve made a massively long post that I expect none of you to read, I hope you’re all doing well!
