Enchanted
Posted on: March 30, 2011 at 11:10 am. 4 comments
Okay, so I was slacking again. Lately, all my time on the computer (which is still A LOT) is spent on Tumblr, watching Jersey Shore (new guilty pleasure show), or talking to my friends on skype about how cute Nathan is. For the last while, I haven’t really had a lot to blog about because my life wasn’t really that entertaining. Well, that and what was going on was stuff I didn’t want to blog about, because I realized in the end what a giant mistake it was, but I can assure you I am now way past that.
Basically.. I was stupid, and believed David when he said he changed. For awhile, we were *trying* but he of course, screwed me over again and I of course, kept putting in so much effort & just getting sadness in return. I was in a bad place for awhile, until one day I decided that I didn’t want to be sad anymore, so I wouldn’t be. I haven’t been, since before I went to Florida. I told myself ‘After I leave for Florida, I am never crying over him again. I am never being sad over him again.’ & I had planned on never talking to him again, but that didn’t happen at the time. He did some really bad things to me in the last while, and while I’m not holding any grudges against him, I am now fully finished with his stupid crap. We don’t talk anymore. The day after St Patrick’s day, we talked a bit but about nothing and then I just never bothered trying to text him. He texted me awhile after, but I just never replied. We had a short conversation on msn, where it died in like 2.5 seconds and he seemed like he was getting grouchy at me because he was in a bad mood so I was just like WHATAIR David, done with you.
So I do know now that it was a giant mistake, but I’m moving past that because I have finally seen the light. In the form of another boy, but that’s okay. I’m going to visit him (and my friend) this Thursday night. Thursday night, when I would usually be at home, watching Grey’s Anatomy. I’ll be missing the epic musical event. For a boy. I flat out refused to even think about missing Grey’s Anatomy for David, ever. But, I’ve been texting Nathan quite a bit and I’m not really sure what my feelings are for him (basically, I’m in denial about liking him because he lives nine hours away when he’s not in school aka in a month and that’s just no fun) but I’m going to go and hang out and have fun, I hope. 
I’m going to go and maybe do a bit of designing now, so I’ll try to blog again soon!
4 comments Tags: Boys, David, Friends, Grey's Anatomy, Life, Nathan.
Scrubs = Reason for Happiness?
Posted on: February 12, 2011 at 1:54 am. 4 comments
I haven’t really felt like myself lately. I posted very briefly about it in the last post, but it hasn’t seemed to go away at all. Maybe it’s the lack of medical scrubs in my life seeing as the only time I watch Grey’s Anatomy now is once a week (seeing their sexy white lab coats always makes me happy). Actually, I highly doubt me not feeling like myself has anything to do with hospital uniforms, but seeing their comfy-looking scrubs does make me want to buy medical scrubs online.
I did have a bit of a girl’s night with two of my friends tonight though, which was nice. We haven’t hung out in awhile, so we just watched Going the Distance and PIGGED OUT, which is also something I haven’t done for awhile. The movie was really cute, and funny so it was just nice to be laughing & with friends and not be at home, or at work (even though I did just go straight there after an 8 hour shift). I have two possible reasons for me not feeling like myself, one of which being my lack of sleep. I try to force myself to wake up at 9am every morning, even when I have no reason to. Just so I’m not sleeping my days away, and so I can try to have a regular sleeping pattern. The thing is, I don’t sleep at night. Even now, it’s almost 2am and I’m still awake. I’m tired, but I can never fall asleep. Last night, I just watched the Big Bang Theory until I eventually fell asleep, because otherwise I think, which never fails to lead to me crying myself to sleep (literally, I don’t remember the last time I didn’t cry before bed).
Wow, this post sounds a bit like an emotionally annoying teen post. Which, kind of is what it is. I’m sure I’ll be fine eventually, it just sucks to feel so blah all the time. I want fun, and excitement. And cowboy’s brother. But a moment is the answer to all of lifes mysteries! So I’ll just have to wait it out, I guess.
OH BUT, how did I forget to mention this until now. I GOT MY CAMERA BACK! Finally. And if that didn’t help me feel better for awhile, IDK what else could. They called shortly after I woke up on Thursday morning, and as soon as I heard my mom tell me the phone was for me I jumped up and was so excited – my mom commented on how big the smile on my face was. So we got there, and it turns out they just gave me a brand new camera body (with new battery, strap & charger.. so I now have two of all those) and gave back my lense because they couldn’t fix the camera I guess. If they were giving me a new one, I have NO IDEA why I couldn’t have gotten it weeks ago, but whatever. I have it back now & I took almost 200 pictures just on the way home, haha. The girl at the store says I’m lucky because Nikon NEVER changes their mind about voiding warranties. Uhm, maybe they just realized I didn’t do anything to the camera, so there’s no reason TO void the warranty?
4 comments Tags: Friends, Girls Night, Grey's Anatomy, Life, Movies, Paid Blogging, Scrubs, Self, Work.
Change is Inevitable
Posted on: January 25, 2011 at 10:42 am. 6 comments
I live in what used to be a small town. We had one mall, one plaza with a grocery store and another plaza with Shoppers Drug Mart, and then various stores going down Main Street. That was about it. My family would usually drive 20-30 minutes away for grocery shopping, simply because there was a wider variety of stores. In 2001, the population was 31,471 (which doesn’t seem as much of a small town, but there were a lot of single houses on the outskirts of town, which didn’t actually seem like a part of my town) and in 2010, it was estimated at 98,500 which is over three times as many people. There was a 71.4% increase in population between 2001 and 2006, and it was named the fastest growing community in Canada. We now have a Wal-Mart, multiple big-chain grocery stores, houses lining every single field there used to be, with so many more in the building process. This picture shows a good example of the developments. ALL of that used to just be fields around the escarpment. Now they put houses literally ANYWHERE they can, and as a result the schools, roads and stores are completely overcrowded.
It’s also part of a region, consisting of a total of five or six other towns (actually I believe one is now refereed to as a city). Between 2005 and 2011, there were a total of four homicides in the entire region. Since the beginning of 2011, there have already been three. A man who was punched in the head which lead to an aneurysm & death; a brother who stabbed his younger brother (this one happened in my town, and my dad worked with their father/uncle) and just recently, another man stabbed during a fight and died. Now, I’m not blaming any of these on the mass amounts of new people who have moved here; the brothers live here all their life, so clearly it’s not part of the issue there. But not just my town has changed, it feels as if everywhere has changed a bit.
Music sure has changed since the 90′s and earlier. Fads, trends and the like have obviously change since things like that change on a weekly basis but so have economical factors, fathers being stay at home dad’s, women having kids on her own, college/university is much more necessary now than it was before to get a job and so many other things. I myself, don’t like change (other than the change I’m seeing in my stomach after going to the gym for a few weeks now – I like that change). Whether it be my favourite radio station changing, my friends changing, my parents rearranging the living room, getting a new boss at work, sitting in a different seat in the car, etc.. I don’t like change. I know of a lot of people who say that, and not quite as many who believe that change is what keeps our lives interesting and not routine.
I know that if my town hadn’t expanding, I wouldn’t be friends with the majority of the people I know now as many of them moved here between now and 2006. I know if it hadn’t expanded, we wouldn’t have Wal-Mart or a movie theater or many of the food places I like to go. But with that also came more homeless people in my town (I think there’s two/three that are pretty well known), a harder hit during the economy drop, and many, MANY more annoying people who make this town seem not quite like what it was before. But I guess you have to take the good with the bad, because there’s nothing we can do about the changes now. In the words of Meredith Grey: “Change; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can’t stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But heres the truth: the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Oh, sometimes, change is … everything.”
6 comments Tags: Change, Friends, Grey's Anatomy, Home, Life, Quotes.
It Gets Worse At Night
Posted on: November 12, 2010 at 11:51 pm. 2 comments
Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep
Well, usually before bed I’ll always be listening to music, so that I can fall asleep to it. Lately, I just play my Speak Now playlist of all the songs from the album and I set a sleep timer for 30 minutes and I USUALLY fall asleep before that time is up, but all of this week I haven’t because I’ve been thinking/crying/not able to sleep. So I’ll go with, the whole Speak Now album.
In regards to my post from last night.. my friend’s aren’t assholes. Well, the majority of them aren’t. Nor am I a pushover, though I just try to do everything I can to hang out with my friends for their birthday’s or any time, because I don’t get to see them as much as I’d like. It just sucks that it seems they don’t feel the same sometimes. I was just stressing about a lot of things and wasn’t in the best mood, so them saying that just really set me off. I had a ginormous rant to my hohohooker last night after I blogged, including some of the things that were bugging me about him & he said that he would fix those, but I’m not sure how that will work out. He also said he’d make sure he made my birthday would be amazing because they always suck. For the last five years, I’ve always ended up crying on my birthday for one reason or another. I want this year to be different, but I have no high expectations because it always sucks.
I had a fun night tonight though, and I bought Season 6 of Grey’s Anatomy on sale today 
So when I get some free time, I can watch that. I briefly saw the schedual at work, and I THINK I only work tuesday and sunday, because I took friday + saturday off for my birthday. So it will be nice to have some free time
