Superman
Posted on: June 13, 2011 at 9:40 pm. 0 comments
Day 13 – A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Dear Taylor Swift,
I can’t really explain how much you have gotten me through. From relationship problems (of course), to being worried about family, just loving life, being happy, moving on, letting go… everything. You have a song for literally everything that I have ever needed one for. And I love you for that. And so many other things. Even days that aren’t bad, you help me get through just by having those happy, upbeat songs like Love Story, Mine, etc. that I just sing along to. And the songs like Superman, that just remind me of someone in so many good ways that I just want to listen to it all the time to keep those happy thoughts. From your very first single (Tim McGraw 
) to whatever your very last may be, I will love every single song that you write, sing and preform simply because I know that one day, it may have the power to get me through whatever it is I need it for. Thank you, for everything that you do and every song that you write and everything you may do in the future. It’s what gets me, and I know man other people, by.
Love, Meredith ♥
I didn’t end up getting the day to work out & make a layout like planned. I woke up WAY later than planned (curse you, snooze button) and then 15 minutes after I woke up, my boss called me into work because one of the full timer’s wasn’t feeling well so I went in from about 1:15-8. That has me working 5 days in a row, then one day off, and 3 more days in a row. All with either 7 or 8 hour shifts. It’s a lot of work, and I’m tired enough now but I need the money and I will hopefully be able to buy my Macbook soon (that I need for school). I’m aiming to get it around the beginning of July, though it all depends on if we’re actually going on our family vacation to PEI or not. My dad might end up having to work, so then we wouldn’t go… I really want to, though.
0 comments Tags: 30 Day Truth Challenge, Life, Money, Music, School, Taylor Swift, Work.
Proud of the house we built
Posted on: June 12, 2011 at 10:23 pm. 3 comments
Day 11 – Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Probably my teeth, simply because they aren’t nice at all. They are probably the one thing I would change if given the chance, simply because I’ve come to terms with how everything else is. They aren’t as bad as they used to be because I’ve worked on making them whiter but they’re really crooked and just.. bad. I need braces, but we could just never afford them (I have an under bite as well). So since they aren’t the best (at all) no one has ever complimented them haha.
I am in pain all over today. I hadn’t been to the gym in two weeks (no time, with work and hanging out with friends and other things to do) and then went both Thursday and Saturday. That alone would be enough to leave me in pain, but I also went to the trailer last night where my cousins were and I ALWAYS get attacked by them. I got jumped all over, punched, played badminton, knocked to the ground during a piggy back ride, went upside down on swinging bars, danced, etc. So now I’m just sore all over and then went to sleep late and woke up lacking sleep for work. I only get tomorrow off, where I’ll be going to the gym again.. and then I work Tuesday & Wednesday for 8 hours each day, have Thursday off (and it’s my grandma’s 70th birthday/my cousin’s 11th so we’ll be there & I’ll get attacked again) and work Friday, Saturday, Sunday for a total of 23 hours over the three days. Super excited for this week, ha.
But I do really need the money. I have almost enough saved up for tuition for my first year, but I’ll also need to buy a $1200 macbook plus books and other supplies. I’ve applied for a student loan which will help out a lot (and I could also get grants, which I won’t have to pay back that would help TREMENDOUSLY but I have no idea how much I would possibly get) but I still want to keep saving up so I wont be in a lot of debt right out of school, and so I won’t have to work a huge amount to still be able to live normally. Though I’ll probably still work 2-3 times a week, because otherwise I might not know what to do with myself…
I’m going to try to make a new layout soon. I LOVE this one, but it’s been up for almost 6 months and I really need to get back into designing more…
3 comments Tags: 30 Day Truth Challenge, College, Family, Gym, Life, Money, Self, Work.
Eff You Nikon
Posted on: January 12, 2011 at 10:56 pm. 5 comments
Back just a few days before Christmas, I posted about how my camera was broke and I had to take it back to Black’s for them to send away to Nikon to get fixed. I hadn’t dropped my camera, from any height & had only had it for two months. I was in the middle of taking pictures of my Christmas Tree when all of a sudden I started getting black spots on my camera, and at times just a full black picture. I took it to Black’s where they said there was no visual damage to show dropping or anything, so it would be 3-4weeks until they knew what was wrong.
So they called yesterday, when I was at work and told my mom it will cost me $250 to fix it because the warranty is void because the damage shows it was dropped. IT. WAS. NOT. DROPPED. My mom told them that, and they called back today & I talked to them, saying it wasn’t dropped. They said maybe at a party, or a gathering, someone else had it and it dropped. No, that didn’t happen because no one else used it. I paid a total of $875 for that camera, with the EXTENDED WARRANTY so clearly I’m going to take care of it.
I could barely talk to them on the phone, because when I get angry (even the slightest bit) I start to cry, and my whole family was there and that’s just weird. My dad was going to go and talk to them tonight, but then I got called into work so we couldn’t. I want to call them back tomorrow (hopefully when no one is home) so that if I cry it doesn’t matter, to tell them that NO, I DID NOT DROP IT. So they can either fix the camera SINCE ITS UNDER WARRANTY AND I DID NOT DROP IT IN THE TWO MONTHS I’VE HAD IT, give me a number where I can talk to Nikon about it and yell at them, or simply send the camera back, unfixed & I’ll take it back to the original Black’s location I got it from and say I want my money back. My mom keeps saying “How do we know they didn’t drop it during shipping? Or before you bought it?”
I didn’t drop it. I was in the middle of taking pictures when the camera stopped functioning properly, and wasn’t mishandling it in any way. I don’t care if the inside looks like the problem is from dropping it.. I DIDN’T DROP IT. You are a giant corporation that makes a lot of money, just fix the effing camera because I didn’t drop it. I swear, if they don’t fix it without me having to pay for it, I’m just going to take it back and get a freaking Canon or something. As much as I LOVED my camera, if Nikon is going to charge me to fix something that was clearly a camera defect and not the result of it being dropped, I’ll switch to a brand that is more reliable and isn’t going to scam me out of $250 WHEN I ALREADY PAID THE EXTRA MONEY FOR THE WARRANTY.
I’m not a happy photographer right now. So tomorrow, I’ll go to the gym and work off all of my anger like I did on monday when I was angry for a whole different reason.
Edit// Oop, just got off the phone with them and they changed their story. Now, a piece of lint derailed the shutter and since that clearly shows that I tried to clean it myself, it means the warranty is void. I DIDN’T TRY TO CLEAN IT MYSELF. Stop changing your effing story and give me the camera back. Once I get back from the gym, they are getting a not-so-friendly call from me, and I’m going to do it after my sister leaves and before my dad gets home so if I cry, it won’t matter
5 comments Tags: Camera, Money, Nikon, Rants, Technology.
Ours
Posted on: December 31, 2010 at 12:52 am. 4 comments
I once again feel like so much has happened since I last posted. I usually don’t go this long without posting, but I feel like ever since Christmas I have barely been home. And when I am, it’s just for sleeping, showering, doing my design or doing small things and then I just leave again. It’s been a mix of working, shopping (a lot of that), hanging out with friends, hanging out with David, spending the day (Thursday) in Michigan dropping my sister off… it’s just been busy.
I bought a new camera earlier tonight. It’s a Samsung 12MP ES70 & it was on sale so I decided to use the remainder of my christmas money on it. My sister ended up leaving her D60 with me while she’s in Michigan for the weekend though, but I still wanted one to keep with me whenever & it’s a nice, small pretty good camera for the price I paid ($79). I’ve also bought a leather jacket, cowboy boots, various new sweaters, a book, cute post it notes, and a bunch of random things so I somehow blew through all $300+ of my christmas money.. oops. Oh well, the most of that money I spend, the less of my work money I spend.. so it all works out in the end.
Okay so, some of you were probably confused by the mention of me hanging out with David up there ^ since in the last posts, I’ve been all grr David is such an asshole, don’t apologize to me, blah blah blah. In the name of my ‘Keep Calm & Carry On’ motto for next year & in annoyance of his pleas for forgiveness, and swearing he’d changed, that I’d be blown away by it, etc.. I gave him another chance. It was supposed to be just as friends; we would hang out if possible, just so I would see that he had changed and wasn’t an asshole & wanted to be civil. (He also suggested us being friends with benefits but, no. Not happening.) So we’ve actually been hanging out a LOT & honestly, it does seem like he has changed. He said that he thinks he was trying to find himself, so he changed who he was in college but then at the end, he realized that it wasn’t who he was & realized that he had lost himself (or something) so wanted to go back. And in all the times we’ve hung out, he’s been so sweet and just.. idk. It’s FELT like old times, before any after prom issues or any falling out of love issues.
And of course, that led to things being more than friends but not quite lovers. Quite. It’s been going in slow stages, with lots of my crying in between. I’ve cried.. three times in the past two days with him? Maybe because I’m scared. Or maybe because I feel like I shouldn’t be doing this. Or maybe because it feels SO MUCH like the old us used to feel, the good us, and that makes me want it so badly but I don’t want it to just disappear again as quickly as it did last time. I can not go through all of that again. So I’ve been holding steady with my willpower & not letting anything more than kissing happening, but.. idk, we got carried away. And before anything finished, I just stopped and started bawling my eyes out. Like, insane shaking crying that I didn’t even really know what caused it (well, kind of knew) & knew I shouldn’t be crying so irrationally but I was anyways because I’m a girl and I can’t help it and maybe a little bit because I’ll be visited by a dreaded lady-friend next week. Idk. But he just hugged me (very tightly) and waited until I was done crying, told me to let it out & then to talk when I was ready. And it was still hard, and then lead to me crying again. But I just don’t know where we’ll go.
Things have to be different this time, if there is a this time. I know that I’m naive to think that he really did change and that things just wont go right back to how they were before, because I’ve seen it happen time & time again with other people, and with him & I especially. I just.. I really love having him back. Just hanging out, and napping and making out and going to Best Buy and texting and being happy and him being sweet and telling me that he just likes looking at my eyes, and just likes hanging out with me. But I can’t help but have those nagging feelings, the.. is it just for sex? Is he just saying those things to reel me back in then hurt me? Will he change again once school starts again? (He doesn’t think so.) Will I ever be the girl for him, considering he said when we broke up that he just doesn’t think I am? Is it just because he’s lonely? Is it just because I’m lonely? Is this really a good idea?
Why do I question so many things about it when it makes me happy to feel like us again?
I just don’t know. I know all of you are for the most part anti-David, and this wasn’t in my plan. Well, I mean.. I always suspected that when he finished school and realized what an asshole he was & what he’d lost, he’d come wanting me back. But I didn’t expect him to be that old him again, and say all the right things and just.. have this happen all over again. I don’t know if I should just let it go, or even if I can just let it go.
